So Amazing

This week has been an emotional week for me. As I anticipate the arrival of Zach's sister, I am constantly overwhelmed by the reality of just how temporary life is. I wonder if she'll be like Zach or if maybe she will be nothing like him. I wonder which is going to be harder. I wonder if I'll be able to protect her better than I did Zach without being too protective. Is that even possible?

And then again another song comes to my mind....

By Mark Harris - Find Your Wings

It's only for a moment you are mine to hold
The plans that heaven has for you
Will all too soon unfold
So many different prayers I'll pray
For all that you might do
But most of all I'll want to know
You're walking in the truth
And If I never told you I want you to know
As I watch you grow

Chorus:
I pray that God would fill your heart with dreams
And that faith gives you the courage
To dare to do great things
I'm here for you whatever this life brings
So let my love give you roots
And help you find your wings

May passion be the wind
That leads you through your days
And may conviction keep you strong
Guide you on your way
May there be many moments
That make your life so sweet
Oh, but more than memories

Chorus:
It's not living if you don't reach for the sky
I'll have tears as you take off
But I'll cheer as you fly

So often I hear this song and at first I find that it will bring tears... "it is only for a moment you are mine to hold" always makes me think of Zach. But then as the song plays on I find that it is a melody that sings in my heart. I pray that all of my child have this life, this legacy. I reflect on the truth that this song is my life. The love and support that surrounds us every day is such a testimony to majesty of God.

And there is another truth in the song. That living isn't living if you don't reach for the sky. So in the midst of my fears and my insecurity I know that Zach's sister will be amazing and great. I know that I'll protect her in every way I can just like I did Zach. I know that the decision Matt and I made to one day start a family is one that we will never regret. And it is because of the joy that Zach was in our lives that Baby Nishna is on the way. We'll chance the love, the joy, the pain time and time again because at the end of the day - nothing is more sweet than the memories of his love and laughter in our life.