And There It Is!

Matt and I have been reflecting on the truth to something P.Dan speaks of... the moment(s) between the Amen and the There It Is. That sometimes seemingly forever middle ground before the solution/plan/manifestation is revealed. For Matt and myself, that pause has felt like an eternity although as I think of that it was really only 3 months long.

As we began to take steps as a couple to repair some hurt and protect our marriage, we began to see God's plan for our lives once again come alive. We journeyed down this scary road known as "counseling" only to find that it wasn't scary and it was instead a great affirmation of something we truly believe - that we are each other's best friend and support. That we love each other more than we could possibly ever express. We learned that grief comes in all size and shapes and can be different for both of us. We also learned that grief isn't exclusive. It isn't meant for just people and pets. That you can grieve jobs, homes, and changes.

And more recently we have gone down this more crazy road of change. A change from protection to planning and promotion. Plans to move and better align ourselves to what we feel God has put on our heart. Plans for our want for more children. A hard search for a new career for Matt. Change that we felt we need to make.

This week we have felt the pains of that change. The newness of the job. The adjusting of schedules. The first time in our entire married life that Matt and I don't work together. And I miss him. And this week we have felt the excitement of knowing we are walking in God's will. The first day of work brought the opportunity for Matt to share openly about his passion - having a great marriage. Not one without faults but one that we both work to have forever. It brought ideas and joy. We feel the excitement of change today. Bigger dreams, new hope.

And I've never been prouder - to see him lead, to see him smile. To see him earn income for the family. To see him be who God created him to be... it feels as if he has been restored. Which is kind of ironic to me. I wanted counseling to help him find his joy and it turns out I need the restoration of counseling. And as soon as I stopped trying to "fix" the unbroken things, doors opened and restoration came. All by simply choosing to trust God's plan, not mine.Don't you know... God's will done God's way will not lack God's provision. (- P.Dan) Amen!