In the Midst

In the midst of the disasters going on, I am reminded that we are standing on the firm rock of God. No matter how strong the winds become, no matter how deep the water, our foundation is on God and it cannot be moved.

My heart broke this past week. And not just broke like 'oh, I felt that and dismissed it broke.' But truly broke. I found myself with an unending well of tears.

And in the midst of allowing myself to feel, I realized that I have built such a wall of protection around my heart that it actually isn't breaking enough. Sounds silly I know. But hear me out. There is no shame in having a heart of compassion, a heart of love. Yes, there is always the risk that you will be hurt and misunderstood. But imagine the darkest days of your life without a friend, spouse, family who was willing to let their heart be broke with you.

To my dearest friends who relate all to well to the pain of losing a child... unborn, living, a child. Please know that I grieve with you. I lift you up in prayer. I long to have "words" for you.

And the theme in my heart... with renewed energy I sing this song to myself every chance I get... I will not be moved a single inch away from God my Father, my Protector. I will move wherever He asks me to go. I will allow my heart to be broken for my friends and for those I don't know.

Natalie Grant - I Will Not Be Moved
From the album Relentless

I have been the wayward child
I have acted out
I have questioned Sovereignty
And had my share of doubt
And though sometimes my prayers feel like
They're bouncing off the sky
The hand I hold won't let me go
And is the reason why...

Chorus:
I will stumble
I will fall down
But I will not be moved
I will make mistakes
I will face heartache
But I will not be moved
On Christ the Solid Rock I stand
All other ground is sinking sand
I will not be moved

Bitterness has plagued my heart
Many times before
My life has been like broken glass
And I have kept the score
Of all my shattered dreams and though it seemed
That I was far too gone
My brokenness helped me to see
It's grace I'm standing on

Chorus

And the chaos in my life
Has been a badge I've worn
Though I have been torn
I will not be moved