Priceless :-)

Halleah says - come on over - she can microwave you chicken to your hearts content!

It is so hard to explain My grief. I can literally decide to walk through the door in my mind and heart and take you down the entire journey of that night. And someday I might.

And I can just objectively decide that nope, not going there right now. So consolidating myself is a little harder than it seems. The part of me that wants to smooth over my pain for everyone to take in is the part of me that wants to at the same time tell you boldly how it feels for me.

So, I have three children. The one above I call the Oldest Daughter (Halleah), is feeding her Grandpa chicken in the picture above. And at her b-day party she fed anyone who wanted to be fed... chicken. Her favorite food. These moments... are priceless. Because with these moments come moments of reflection. I can hear Zach's giggle resound in my heart and mind. I can feel Mattalyn crawling at my feet. And I can see Halleah feeding Grandpa chicken. It is in that corner of my heart. A moment that seems silly but my moment for always.