Reflection

The addition of music to my blog changes the way I think about this page. I used to copy the lyrics into my post and write my reflections. But now... now I can add a new song to my playlist and the song can speak for me. It leaves me somewhat speechless.

And then.... a thought, a reflection. God knocking on my heart asking me to recieve a truth about myself.

A truth arriving compliments of my daughter, Mattalyn... She is in the background crying as Matt tries to teach her to climb down the stairs which she has gotten herself stuck on. And this thought crosses my mind. How many times in my life have I cried when all I needed to do is trust myself? How many times has my Daddy God looked at me and shook his head like I am doing right now? Millions of times, no doubt. Right now He is smiling at me because He knows I have just had a revelation.

And it makes me smile too. I am not trying to torture my child. Rather I am waiting for it to click in her head. I am watching her right now. I watch her every day. She has had the knowledge and the phycial ability to climb down the steps that she skillfully navigated up. And every day she hesistates. Soon she will learn to trust herself. Soon she will hear my persistent 'You can do it.'

Perhaps the stubborness I have in my life brings God some joy. I know from watching my daughter that she brings me great joy... even as she fights the knowledge she has within herself.

And Daddy God... message recieved. I will trust you. I will trust me with the knowledge and tools you have equiped me with.

And... a song :)