We sat with Todd in room 940 at Mercy Hospital as he left his life on this earth this past Saturday, May 23, 2009. During the last hour we all sat surrounding his bed telling our favorite stories and memories of him. We laughed together. It seemed so fitting. Todd was always positive, always upbeat. Life never took him down - even when it should have.
And so we sat around him laughing until with a nod we were signalled that it was over. He drew his last breathe and his heart beat a final beat.
More tears. More shock. It is so hard to believe that this life is ours... this moment our family's truth.
And with bravery and tears we face this new life... A sweet reunion for Todd in heaven - his dad, mom, brother, and grandson preceed him. And a bittersweet realization for those of us still here... we must continue on now, without him.
I worry less about my girls missing thier Opa and instead wonder how my husband puts his feet on the ground in the morning. How my mother-in-law begins to live in her now quiet house. I know healing will come in time. I know but I also know it is never the same. Our lives will never be the same.
To the man who called me "Tiger" the day my son died... the man who spoke words of wisdom and truth and encouragement into Matt's life...
You are so greatly missed.
1 comment:
You write so beautifully!!! Thank you once again for sharing your soul and letting God speak through you. On Sunday, my cousin died suddenly in an accident. I'm wading through grief right now as well. It's sometimes hard to process. I wish no one had to feel such pain. But I know it's part of life even though I wish it weren't. Your words are perfect & bittersweet & caring & truthful & raw...etc. Thank you for sharing your heart's cry!
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